Heyhey,

Just to share with you, a few days ago ( can't remember when) I had a dream. A sweet one. Yes... a girl. A totally random girl. I can't even remember her face when I woke up. I only remember.... she kissed me. Is not a me prompting her kind of situation. It's a spontaneous situation. Beautiful yet blurish dream. Hope to have more it.

SO Peace out for now

: )

Wow Fredric, Second post this month.... nice...
1 thing to know,
Eyes = ( Just Girl friend)
Heart = ( Potential Candidate for marriage.)
I've got things to spill so get ready.

I'm mad. Mad about the disability of providing certain sense of security that woman wants. Although I understand that every one function differently, I am still unsatisfied with the me now. I do not look my age. Look like some poly student. I am skinny and those kind of girls that are pleasing to my heart are against my kind. Suffer in vain, apparently those human artifact are out of my control. So get alive Fredric. I also get angry when I see girls ( girls that not only pleasing to the eyes, but the heart too) are attached with some guy. I will visually scan through the guy ( not checking him out) and compare myself with him. Totally hate it. That girl that I saw today is with this... Young angmo... both in JC. I saw this girl just right outside the Mrt door, Both of us were outside. She is with two friends, the Angmo(AM) and another girl all in uniform. After I saw her, I saw the AM, immediately I start to visualise the possibility of the AM chasing her. Although they were standing a few feet apart, I could almost imagine the AM victory. True enough, once we were all in the train, this AM shoulder accidentally brush her face ( very crowded train) and she seems to be standing at the exact place, enjoying the feeling. I was super ferious and my blood were boiling. Seriously speaking, She is not my girl friend and I have not been chasing her... even for a day ? So why on earth am I so mad about ? I'm going crazy. This is not the first time though.

Enough of ranting... Totally messed up my english there. So another crazy guy here : )

Hello Hello Hello !!!!


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never blog. I blame on my exam and holidays (That just ended "CRYYY") I was busy mugging during the exam period and thus no time to blog. But I really have a few inspiration on what to blog but I just simply forgot ! I have this sickness since I was little so don't blame me ? OH, before I forget, I am selling my Sec 3 Math textbook and Science Chem for O'level text book. Both at good price and very good condition. My intention at first was to buy and do self study for O'level. Next thing I knew was I ended up in Uni ( How great is our GOD !) sO, YOU can contact me if you know anyone whose interested in buying it. I'll give great discount. Currently I am making use of the non busy period of school days to watch shows. I've got tons of movie I want to watch. But due to time restriction, I'll just have to select them base on.... MY FEELING. Hahaha. Totally random but true. Got a new job at Just Acia 6.5/hr. Pretty high pay, but weird red uniform and restaurant concept. Because of the money, I guess I JUST got to let go of my pride and go for the money. At least my hair is acceptable : ) I have some issue I need to due with. I feel agitated when I have to wait. This WAITING issue has been bordering me. I can't wait. I will always go for the shorter que, or be a little late just so that I am not the first to reach. Today I learned the hard way with FOOD. I was in VIvo with my parent and my family had dinner at Food republic. Most of the food outlet I am fine with got long que, so being a typical me I just walk to the western food store and order ( since it as NO body and reasonable price) I sat down with my family and we ate. My food taste horrible. The rice are pretty hard. I cannot stand this kind of food and felt sorry for myself because of the BETTER tasting food my family is having.

OHHhhhh We are back to the girl friend issue. Damn, I got some urge to step ahead of aim of getting a christian girl to any other girl I find attractive. There are so many chances for me to get go against the grain. Thank God the holy spirit discern the choices. I wonder how long can it last before I give in. Basically because for a christian girl to like my kind of personality and hairstyle is rather hard. They rather go for a more mature (Seems only ?) and shorter hair no baggy pants type of guy. I guess I better not find one now. Am quite in deep shit myself. So... better not...


Photos next time laaaa Laaa .... LAaa laa la la la la la : )

He has never felt this poor before,

His stage of poverty is near the last. It's going to test his faith in his creator to sustain. His wants will have to wait. Control will be the key word. Mind over body he must remember. Will this bring a new character in him ? A character far worst than before or will he be ever more generous. His laziness will be put to an end. All others leisure and fun will be on halt. He will have to re look at his life. He will have to understand how gracious and merciful has his God been. Providing him with a shelter far better than the others, an air-conditional room to rest in. Electronic gadget that help him to view the world in one click of the mouse. How much more does it has to take for us to realize and be grateful.

FYI, I just cut my hair. I must say this haircut is one of the most promising cut I ever had. I believe I am a very sensual person. I love it when this girl wash my hair. Her touch will melt my heart. While she was washing my hair, I was thinking "man, wash for another hour pleaseeee !" But of course it did not happen. I thought her washing was a little... 'weak'. Lack of strength. But at the same time I am reminded of gentleness of her hand, and when she massage my neck, it felt refreshing. I could possibly imagine if we get together and let this softness be remembered. Back to the haircut. That guy sound professional. At least he says words that is pleasing to my ear. He acknowledge the trend in hair now is not to thinner the hair but to do layering at the same time, displayed a degree of thickness. After he styled my hair, my overview of my head is pretty good, but my side burn is a little short ? Anyway, I am the one who requested for shorter side burn. $15 dollars for a good cut, all worth it. Would go back for the cut, and the hair wash. I don't think I would love it if my relationship requires little or no touch. Every time I carry a children to sit on the baby chair, I kind of felt happier. This sense of my will bring me back to when I used to carry babies. Now I think I lack physical touch with the world. This could also be a reason why I am such an introvert(cum extrovert).

I am.... Broke like never before.

I crossed my own line and now land myself in hot soup (mushroom soup ! Yummy)

Least I can do is to not borrow money from any people.

Let my poverty die with me.

I'm terrified.

Indeed,I was. The motion I went through was intensify. An experience that startled me. I thought I lost my ez-link card along with my 2 ICs. When I was reaching the MRT control station, I feel my butt, and realized one of my back pocket was empty. Panic, I rush to the stairs and dropped by back, began the searched. I knew at that moment, what was the consequences if I really lost it. I have to make a police report regarding it. But Thanks be to God, it fell into my bag while I was changing.

While I was working today, I saw two secondary school mates. Obviously they don't recognize me. But I always have been a little more observant then the rest ? Anyway, I did not say hi or what so ever. Before I went to work, I had lunch at TCC with my project mates, 1 for 1 deal so why waste it. While I was settling down, I saw this pretty girl sat next to my table so I took an extra peep. Strangely, she was looking back at me. So I stared hard for little while, then she waved at me. I was surprised yet trying to figure who is she. I keep my cool, waved and smile back. Then I realize that was Yuan Xuan. I mean, who would know that we will meet each other in this manner. At that time, I recall the image of her during the secondary school days. Compared it with the current her, WOW I tell you. Big changes. I hardly recognize her. I wonder what is she doing now, at her age (not very sure what also.. should be same as joflin) if she continue the education hierarchy, she should be doing her degree now. But she is in office dress. Probably an intern ? Whateva.

Only 3 weeks and I have not started by studies !!!

NOOOooooooooooooooooooo ~ !

Today had been a very weird day for me. (I got to go to my DIvision for reservice shoot(is a annual thing)

I was mentally prepared to face the music. I knew my hair is not going to make it through but still, I went to the division all spike up. Saw a ex college in the lift, he asked me what is my business here ? I replied, shooting. He then say, your hair can pass me ? I don't know ( I was lying to myself). As dumb as I could be, I was on time. Sure enough, no one turn up. So I make my way up to PNS office. The officer in charge start to wack on my hair. Saying I can't go to HTA with this hair and colour, they will sure reject you and refrain you from shooting. I was like "yaya... I know -_-"' "So after he repeated many times that he is not particularly aiming on me but for my own good. (A side note, in the end the briefing start at 10.) At that moment, I was cracking my head to find an easy solution to save my hair. In the end, the best solution to it is to cut only the back.

After the briefing,(lunch time) I make my way down to the salon, choosing the cheapest and " look professional" salon. Went in, and this china lady led me to my seat. Asked me what do I want to do with my hair. Worried that she would do something foolish to my hair, I said, leave everything as it is, just cut away the back. She did just fine in that. She also help me comb by side burn back ward with her BED hair product which she claim to be 30 over dollars. Anyway, that don't bother me at all. I mention the price before I start to cut. After the combing back action, I look like a nerd. SUPERB nerd. A look I have not seen in ages. At the same time I was laughing at myself. "Look at what you ended up with Fredric" I said to myself. With a sigh, I paid 4 bucks and walk out to search for black hair spray, non of the mama should sells it. So I head towards other salon with hope of them charging at per spray rate.

This aunty at the other salon(yes, I went to 2 salon in just less than an hour) help me GEL UP my hair, put hair spray + the dark brown spray, in total for 3 bucks. Looking at the mirror, what I lack now is just a pair of nerd glasses. Thereafter I went back to my division, get ready to travel there through a police van, sending some other there too. One of the passenge is my friend from division. We talk about dragonica throughout the journey there. He is like... level 40 and above. So he is basically some pro. As expected, a long que at the range awaits us. While queing up, I was staring at this guy, the back of his hair is longer than mine before I cut. I was thinking, wahh.. so long can ah... Next time that happen is that he got called to see his hair, in the end, he cut off his back himself. I was secretly praising God. The other guy from my division also got called, because of coloured hair. His case can be charge because he fail to obey order. He was warned earlier at the division that his hair would to make it there. But he choose to ignore it. I felt happy because I cut my hair but at the same time sad and sorry for the guy because he got bar from shooting. Wasting the trip there. While wait, most of use slept like no body business. I was actually worried about the result. But after the shoot, I got MARKS MAN ! Which is totally AMAZING.

Thank GOD again. At the end of the day, I think back and realise I have trip over stuff for like... 5 over times ? Felt stupid at that moment. But soon ignore the thinking. Because I look like a nerd with that hair and at the same tim.. look like gay ? But I guess I've got no choice. Be gay for one day. Of course I don't behave like one. I just look like one ? because of the hair.

Wow, super long.

Ok Tired and need to rest.

{ Enjoying every moment without project}

It has been a boring period for me. So crazy cracking brain solving assignments. As you can see, I like to keep photo fair. But as you know now, my skill are SOOoo limited. I can only make EVERY thing fairer. OH well.... and sorry that the photo are all ME. Because I have not been hanging out with my friend lately.

I did a very funny job today, temperature taking. SO funny. A good experience I guess.

Am I getting used to being alone ?

Is this a good thing ?

And.... for once... I am REALLY BROKE.

My goodness. Didn't realize my preparation saving wasn't enough. I just feel like being alone right now and save like there is no tml.

Back to emo state. : )